Elliot Web page says he by no means felt like a woman, and describes making an attempt to pee standing up

• Elliot Web page mentioned his memoir “Pageboy” in a latest interview with The Guardian.
• Web page, 36, stated that he tried to pee whereas standing up when he was 4.
• Web page additionally talked about popping out as homosexual and transitioning underneath the guise of fame in Hollywood.

Editor’s observe: This text mentions suicidal ideation

Elliot Web page is on his fact tour to debate how he saved his life and his quest for autonomy.

In an interview with the Guardian’s Simon Hattenstone, printed Saturday, Elliot Web page shared extra perception about his life following the June 6 launch of his memoir “Pageboy.”

“I am nervous, however grateful for the chance to have written it,” he advised the outlet.

The e book recounts Web page’s journey from a younger age, the place he felt uneasy in his physique and explored methods to really feel nearer to his identification.

“I’d press on my vagina, holding it, pinching and squeezing it, hoping I may intention,” Web page writes, in keeping with the Guardian. The “Juno” star wrote that he by no means felt like a woman rising up and did not have the language to precise himself to his neighborhood. 

Web page stated his early years included self-harm, experimenting with substances, an consuming dysfunction, and suicidal ideation. He stated he dove into performing as a method to remodel the world round him.

“There was a component of escape. You are going to a spot the place it is your job to really feel and join as a lot as attainable, and we dwell in a world that encourages us on some stage to not,” Web page stated. “I used to be feeling issues by means of different characters with out allowing myself to take action in my life.”

Whereas he was unable to seek out closure along with his father and stepmother, Web page advised the outlet that writing “Pageboy” was “very helpful for my relationship with my mother. It has allowed us to speak about issues for the primary time in a significant, honest manner.” 

Web page additionally lets readers into his love life, a lot of which was marked by secret relationships.

As Insider’s Julie Gerstein beforehand reported, Web page revealed in his memoir that he dated “Home of Playing cards” actress Kate Mara whereas she was in a relationship together with her longtime boyfriend Max Minghella.

Within the memoir, Web page additionally accuses a number of Hollywood insiders of sexual assault and harassment. Web page recounts a traumatic expertise the place he writes “one of the vital well-known actors on the earth” threatened to rape him, and insisted that Web page was not homosexual after the actor had publicly come out.

“I’ll fuck you to make you realise you are not homosexual. I’ll lick your asshole. It’ll style like lime. You are not homosexual,” Web page writes the actor stated, in keeping with the outlet.

“Energy works in humorous methods,” Web page writes. “He was, and nonetheless is, one of the vital well-known actors on the earth.”